Smut Marathon - what a learning curve!



I decided to enter the Smut Marathon for a number of reasons, and the main one was to push myself.  If I wanted to consider myself later as a writer I needed to see if I could write about different things.  The blog so far has been incredibly personal and on times very hard to write - and judging by the messages and feedback it's definitely touched a nerve with some of you.  However, I didn't want to get bogged down with just seeming to be gloomy all the time and the Smut Marathon seemed the perfect mix of erotic, kink, fun and challenge that was required.  If you want to see the other responses you can find them HERE

I sent off my email details thinking oh well I can chicken out later if necessary, no-one would need to know I bottled it at the last minute.  What I found very hard for the first assignment was not having any benchmark.  I've never written like that before, sure I've had saucy text conversations with lovers but that's an intimate, safe conversation where you will eventually get to giggle at 'err, explain what on earth that meant please??' over a glass of wine on the safety of your own sofa.  Putting words down for strangers to judge, pass comment, maybe expose your weaknessess and your boundaries - that's what I found most difficult.  I was fully expecting my entry to stick out in a bad way against experienced writers of erotica and was dreading the initial results round.  I almost didn't want to publicly say on twitter that I had entered in case the feedback was 'why did you even bother??' as we are always, always our own worst critics.  Putting your work out for judgement means putting a piece of yourself out there too and as creatives we're not always great at separating critique from criticism especially when we dish it out to ourselves so often.

However, I couldn't have been more wrong! There was a query I had and Marie replied quickly with a full explanation in a friendly way that I thought 'why was I was sweating this?'.  Her communication has been fantastic and at no point have I thought eek I'll look a right donut brain for asking that.  So, assignment one - yeah that didn't go brilliantly as I needed to clearly pay more attention at school as to what a metaphor actually is.  I would also like to thank those that took the time to detail feedback for everyone, it must have taken them ages but it was so useful and oddly just the acknowledgement that someone had bothered to take that time was enough.  It certainly made me feel less isolated.  Also, the twitter banter between entrants is picking up and that's fun too.  Hopefully we're all settling past our initial nerves and can start to enjoy it a bit more.

As for assignment two, almost immediately the email arrived I created a first draft.  After seeing the other entries, the wonderful feedback and the friendly communication I feel more settled to push myself even more into the kinky corners of my brain that are usually held back on for fear of censure by the less open minded shall we say. And I think in time Quirky's sense of kink will probably come back on TWITTER too!

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